He held me at three am as I sobbed and screamed because everyone around me was dying.
He can’t say he feels nothing for me, when he held me and rocked me and said “shhh babe it’s ok, it’s ok, it’s ok, I’m here” over and over. Just “shhh babe I’m here it’s ok”.
When I know it was painful for him since just the year before he had just watched his mom die of cancer like my uncle was doing at the time, but he still held me and soothed me.
He may say he feels nothing but those forehead kisses and the way he held me on all those rough nights says different.
